I realized I was actually better off this way. I was very scared at first thinking that we're not gonna be together anymore, but somehow, I managed to get off the lonely course easily.
Just to spill the beans, my boyfriend and I broke up right after my birthday, and I cut off all means of communications with him, just to stop all the bullshits and lies he was pulling on me. It was hard but I learned to realize that it was for the better.
I recovered easier and faster than I thought, probably because when I think of all the bad things which weigh more than the good things that I remember, it just makes everything sour and easier to forget.
I don't understand why lying can be so easy for other people and I never thought that someone could do it to me, a thousand times, when you've given the person 99 percent of your everything.
At one point, I would feel bitter and regretful about everything, so that I could stop and end all there and leave it all behind because it doesn't make any difference anymore. Worth it or not? It doesn't matter.
Now here I am, nothing much changed really. I just got busier than the usual busy routine. I do not feel like I lost so much but somehow a part of me has been taken away but I'm never going to take it back again.
If you had not loved me right, then you do not deserve me.
The world did not stop at all. It's still the same old me, just no bullshits from you.
(all photos taken @ Rockwell- blue bondage dress, glitterati cult black belt, black strappy heels, black fringe bag)
DC: and here I added a little drama with my photos, because I feel like telling a story.
